Breaking barriers

The power of thinking: sacrifice

2008-09-12T15:26:00.000-07:00

"I am going to do what's required, even if my heart is somewhere else, for the payoff of my sacrifices would come soon."

The power of thinking: responsive

2008-08-23T17:08:00.001-07:00

"I'll take care of a problem by responding quickly than it is to wait and see what will happen next if I leave things alone."

Don't get scared of.......Love

2008-08-17T18:55:00.000-07:00

Get Real

Get Real is a realistic film depicting a story not necessarily with a happy ending but still leaves you emphatic with the main character. So realistic that it's not afraid to show what's really going on in the life of a gay teenager.

The movie is starred by Ben Silverstone

who pulled the right mixture of pride and confusion as he plays Steven Carter. While the role of John Dixon, who is a confused soul in a confused world, was portrayed by Brad Gorton.

This is a charming and uplifting movie about first love and infatuation.

The power of thinking: relax and chill out

2008-08-09T20:57:00.000-07:00

"It's not the end of the world. I can't force myself to mix things up if I just don't feel like it. Cut myself some slack and don't try to be perfect. No one expects it of me, so why would I expect it of myself?"

The power of thinking: morale

2008-07-21T04:49:00.000-07:00

"I am looking for ways to accept myself and tries not to be hard on anybody."

I've got to tell you something......I'm straight

2008-06-30T16:37:00.001-07:00

Ads like this have subtleties in it, I just hope the bigots would understand it's meaning;

I guess they will never learn;

NY Gay Couple Files Discrimination Case Against Online Adoption Service

VerveEarth invite

2008-05-26T07:27:00.000-07:00

I feel honored to be invited to join VerveEarth hosted by Clayton Brown, which is a cool webbie interactive geographic map of the world much like pinning done in the Google Earth but instead of places here they use blogs as markers.

Should you be interested to check it out you can just click their banner on the right side of my blog to see what it is all about.

The power of thinking: complacent

2008-05-13T14:41:00.000-07:00

"I am not going to complain about how much there is to be done but to be thankful for the potential rewards that will follow."

hi5's Dominican hunks

2008-05-02T20:15:00.000-07:00

The power of thinking: control

2008-04-22T15:52:00.000-07:00

"I'll keep in mind that my impatience with others might be a result of my own frustration. Expressing what's in my heart will probably feel great in the moment, but could disrupt my routine. I have to decide in advance if it'll be worth it."

Yes Levi Can

2008-04-22T13:09:00.000-07:00

As much as I wanted to go and see Levi Kreis in flesh romancing the tunes to my heart's delight. There are some good things that you can't simply have. Sad! sad! sad!

No, I don't want my frustrations spoil the party, if you have the means to see him he'll be strutting his stuff in these following gigs:

Friday, May 2nd, 9pm @ Room 5:
Tuesday, May 6th, 8pm @ Genghis Cohen: Writers Circle w/ Chantelle Barry & Wendy Piatt.
Friday, May 16th, 11pm @ Molly Malones: Live taping of
"Where I Belong: Live" including songs from Levi's coming CD "Where I Belong" Come be a part of our very first DVD!

Enjoy his heart-wrenching music and good looks as you can see in this picture. Wowwowoweee! Am drooling......

Thanks Matthew Fouste for the newsletter and also of letting me know updates about him!

Sonic on his way

2008-04-19T06:33:00.000-07:00

It's been three long hard weeks of waiting finally the day when I'll pick up Sonic, my pet chihuahua, had arrived. I know he suffered so much because he wasn't with me although he is properly taken care of by my mom and my "padrasto." I made it a point to call him everynight and over the phone I can hear him sing and talk unintelligibly. I did this because I fear he might not recognize me anymore.

And everytime he does that i just go weak in the knees. How could such a little creature could be so much intelligent and loveable yet hated by some people? So little time but he was able to capture their hearts just like the first time I laid my eyes on him and hug him.

He is the perfect pet for me.

The power of thinking: work quality

2008-04-01T23:17:00.000-07:00

"I should stop doing so much 'on the go' -- multi-tasking is only helping me accomplish a lot of things. It's not helping me accomplish them well. Quality is much more important than quantity right now."

The power of thinking: positivity

2008-03-07T20:22:00.000-08:00

"I just have to start seeing things in a more idealistic, beautiful, and hopeful way. The rest will take care of itself. All I need to do is start to focus on the positive possibilities, and the universe will take the hint."

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2008-03-02T19:22:00.000-08:00

Jan-dling the odds well

Just so you know

Nick:
Age: 22
Zodiac:
Ethnicity: Filipino and Irish
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: Black
Height:

You can't imagine what this guy have gone through before he was discovered while walking in a shopping mall and became a sensational hit.

Although Janvier Daily is mostly casted in indie films he catapulted immediately to stardom because of his infamous picture all over the MMS world and internet. Well, sometimes it pays to be scandalized. Heheheheh!

Like no one in any other hunks that I have featured here, Janvier basically came from rags to riches.

As one interview says, his family have trodden the streets of the metropolis to avoid his sadistic father. He grew up without really having a normal family, his other siblings were taken away and adopted while he was kept in a Juvenile Center.

His life story is truly inspiring and moving redeeming any bad effect that his naked picture have created.

Picture credits to : Manila Gay Guy
Kuwan
Meninthephilippines

The power of thinking: moving on

2008-02-03T20:52:00.000-08:00

"I won't be feeling depressed about something that happened. What's done is done. I have to keep carrying on."

Have you been robbed before?

2008-01-29T16:04:00.000-08:00

It was in the morning after I finished my graveyard shift when I discovered that the place where I lived was ransacked. Everything were thrown everywhere. Yes, my place was been robbed, unluckily. Hu! hu! hu!

This is what I get living alone in a foreign land. Maybe the neighborhood is not that safe but what can I do? While on the other side of the city, they rob you too with the skyrocketing rent fees for their apartments. Hell yeah, what's the bloody difference?

You know what the funny thing is I've been living in this apartment for almost 3 years now when they finally decided to add more security. They've put an iron gate exactly in front of my apartment door. I overdid it and got more paranoid and said to myself maybe these was not enough and decided to add a padlock. It takes time for me to open the whole shit but for the reason I wanted my things to be safe I never minded. It never entered my fucking mind they could get on the balcony door. Who could have known that here in DR the robbers are more like spider men and do acrobatic stunts? My place is on the third floor, do the physics. Well, I learned my lesson the hard and costly way. Never to trust the impossible.

With the help of some friends we reported the incident to a seemingly disinterested and incompetent policeman on duty that time. The way he responded made me think otherwise, our report was useless. The only most logical thing to do now is to wander what I have lost and how I can buy a replacement in the next following months. Don't get me all wrong here I am not a materialistic person but one of the things they stole that night is a basic need to thrive here;

POWER INVERTER

It's true you can't live without it in this electric-power forsaken country because of the massive and multiple blackouts they have almost everyday or every night. We're actually making the stockholders for PI manufacturing companies get richer and richer every second of this BS 'apagones'.

We don't know how we could quit you, Heath!

2008-01-22T12:16:00.000-08:00

I got shocked when I opened My Yahoo when I came to work and received the news of the death of Heath Ledger. His role of Ennis del Mar in the cowboy love story 'Brokeback Mountain' made so much impact in me that I have watched the film from the beginning to the end 15 times. I even bought the original CD to add it to my collection. It was worth it.

Who could forget that scene where he was swearing in front of their clothes and the Brokeback Mountain postcard? The scene was so cinematic and full of meaning and probably touched every gay man's heart.

He's an upcoming actor worthy of my admiration that I began to scour his films to see more of him. When I learned that he would be playing the Joker in the next sequel of 'Batman Returns' I got so excited and intended to watch it the first day of showing. Expecting the said playdate but only now when his death was announced that the word have slipped out, the movie will be shown this coming June. Sadly he won't be joining his co-stars in promoting the film. I wish they will still go ahead with it, after all he might be wanting this too.

Heath take our love and devotion with you in heaven! REST IN PEACE! You will be forever be remembered. We all never going to quit loving you!!!

The power of thinking: control

2008-01-09T11:50:00.000-08:00

"I'll have a good sense of action and reaction, a sensible time to take control of my life. But I will not push too hard because I'll probably reach my goals faster by easing off the gas pedal so not to have to hit the brakes."

DR on my lens - Los Tres Ojos

2008-01-06T11:00:00.000-08:00

"Los Tres Ojos" is one of DR's tourist attraction situated midway going to Las Americas from Santo Domingo. The first lake "Ojos del Diablo" was discovered during the 1916, it is a subterranean river filled with sulfurous water having a depth of 20 feet. The second lake which is called "La Nevera" (spanish term for refrigerator) has a temperature that drops to 15 degrees centigrade. The third and the smallest lake is "Lago de las Damas" which is warm and shallow. "Los Saramagullones" is the fourth lake with a depth of 300 meters and was named after a specie of ducks that inhabit it.

These lakes with water coming from a subterranean river "Brujuelas" are unique and picturesque enough to draw tourist and locals alike.

Brief update

2008-01-02T15:39:00.000-08:00

Diesel keeps the passion flowing

This section that I will be opening up will be featuring new lines of male undergarments from all over the world and from different brands. So in this virgin post I'd like to start with the a very famous brand Diesel. Feast your eyes on the eye candies wearing them.

Photo Compliments:

Diesel

Blog Phenomenon

2007-12-31T14:03:00.000-08:00

Fifteen years later, blogging have been a way of voicing out one's opinion and individuality in the world wide web. It's been successful as until now it is the most widely used form of information dissemination besides e-mails, forum and messengers. The craze have caught on immensely that it already competed with the major types of mainstream media such as broadcast and print.

However, do you know whom do we owe this wonderful tool of communication? We owe them to these people such as Brian E. Redman who in year 1983 created his mod.ber which is like a serial journal publishing style and features links interesting and cool places on the net. While Justin Hall blogged his life as a student at Swarthmore College in 1994. But it was Steve Gibson who earned the first paycheck from Ritual Entertainment in 1997 from his blogging. The term "weblog" was coined by John Barger but was later modified by Peter Merholz into "blog" by breaking the word into a phrase "we blog".

Of course drawbacks such as cases of bloggers settling cases in courts for invasion of privacy, infringement, defamation, libel suits just to name a few are inevitable. A blogger's code of conduct proposal was made by Tim O' Reilly, click on the link to give you an idea.

Blogger's Code of Conduct

The power of thinking: self-appreciation

2007-12-30T18:56:00.000-08:00

"I need to turn down the volume in my life! This will enable me to appreciate the smaller things, like a friend's laugh or a perfect cup of coffee. There's no need for me to be the center of the action today. I'll just be the center of my own world."

The truth is unforgiving but will set you free.

2007-12-28T15:10:00.000-08:00

The Boys of St. Vincent

I saw this wonderful docudrama and I thought sharing it with you.

The Boys of St. vincent is based on real events that occurred in Newfoundland, Canada. The film is made in two parts: (1) relayed the abuses, physical and sexual, that the brothers have inflicted to the orphans and (2) sums up the trial of the accused and the hardships of grown-up sexualy abused children.

This made-for-television movie asks the audience to emphatize with a phedophile as a human being and not merely pervert which made it very sensational also as it has been highly condemned by both the Catholic Church and the Newfoundland government.

The abuser Lavin played by Henry Czerny

have shown a conflicting side of a person's character. The fact that he is a handsome, intelligent and charismatic man but somewhat twisted in the eyes of Kevin(Johnny Morina),

the abused kid. Kevin Reevey is one of the abused children that the movie have focused on all through out the film. He barely speaks but exhudes youthfulness although he was suffering a lot in that time. In part 2, he (Sebastian Spence)

became a very troubled man as he is unable to deal with his past. His anxieties have even meddled his relationship with his girl.

There's also the story of the brothers Stephen (David Hewlett) and Brian (Timothy Webber) Lunney. They were separated as the older have chosen to leave the orphanage but promised to come back for his younger brother. Fate did not let him keep his promised. They met each other again in the second part of the movie, now Brian is happily married while Stephen have turned to drugs to drown his pastlife. He comitted suicide after the defense lawyer have revealed that he himself have abused a child when he was a teenager. His death have moved Reevey to finally give his side of the story. Setting him free from anxiety and depression.

If you like to have a glimpse of the said movie you can visit this url: http://youtube.com/watch?v=IS5fkO9uE3A

Jesus to Michael

2007-12-28T09:17:00.001-08:00

The Artist

George Michael is a household name in the British Music Industry. For the past 2 decades he was domineering the radio waves from being a part of a duo Wham then as a solo artist. But his rise to fame was not a smooth one, as he met a lot of problems with record producing labels such as Sony. He struggled against them as he cannot take the pressure of being someone different in the face of his many fans. Eventually he came out of the closet in 1996, but was in an established relationship since 1991 with Anselmo Feleppa to whom he dedicates the song am featuring here "Jesus to a Child." He kept his homosexuality secret because of his ailing mother with the fear of the impact it would do her. Eventhough, he was haunted by the papparazzi everytime he will be en flagrante delicto being himself.

I've learned that he's staging a come back in the industry. Can't wait what bomb would he explode this time after the last bout he had with the authorities about a fat guy he had engaged sex with. Could he be cooking another song like "Outside" that he penned to mock the controversy he was with a policeman before.

The Song

Kindness in your eyes I guess you heard me cry

You smiled at me Like Jesus to a child I’m blessed I know

Heaven sent and heaven stole

You smiled at meLike Jesus to a child

And what have I learned

From all this pain

I thought I’d never feel the same

About anyone or anything again

But now I know

Chorus:

When you find love

When you know that it exists

Then the lover that you miss

Will come to you on those cold, cold nights

When you’ve been loved

When you know it holds such bliss

Then the lover that you kissed

Will comfort you when there’s no hope in sight

Sadness in my eyes

No one guessed, well no one tried

You smiled at me

Like Jesus to a child

Loveless and cold

With your last breathyou saved my soul

You smiled at me

Like Jesus to a child

And what have I learned

From all these tears

I’ve waited for you all those tears

Then just when it began

He took your love away

But I still say

Chorus

So the words you could not say

I’ll sing them for you

And the love we would have made

I’ll make it for tow

For every single memory

Has become a part of me

You will always be ... my love

Well I’ve been loved

So I know just what love is

And the lover that I kissed is always by my side

Oh the lover I still miss ... was Jesus to a child

The Video

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-12-27T09:10:00.000-08:00

Evan-gelizing male beauty

Just so you know

Nick:
Age: 23
Zodiac: Aries
Ethnicity: Brazilian
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 6 ft

Mother's knows best as always which is how one of the most sought after male models Evandro Soldati in the fashion world today had started modeling four years ago. His mother signed him up for a Ford contest in his native Brazil and from then on his name popped up in every high class campaigns such that of Louis Vuitton, Valentino and Giorgio Armani.

Although it was his mother's idea for him to become a model, he said in an interview that he liked the job as he gets to travel places and learn different languages along the way.

His hobbies are capoeira and soccer, which also keep him fit and slim

as he has to maintain a strict training regimen. Cool kid! I hope I have that will to do mine. He he he!

DR on my lens - Cradle of Technology

2007-12-25T15:11:00.001-08:00

Although it's a bit late compared with the other Developing Countries of the world, Dominican Republic boast of their only science and technology institute, if not, one that is credible enough to earn its name;

Instituto de Tecnologico de Las Americas or ITLA. Situated near Parque Cibernetico de Santo Domingo where I presently work.

The institute offers Information Technology, Mechatronic and Multimedia courses. Since it boasts of high-tech facility it is one of the most expensive schools in the country and many of the students come from a well-to-do family.

In a country where most of the time the elders hold the power to rule, it is a joy to see that these kids are growing up with the sense of the importance of science and technology in their lives. And think that is not just a subject matter but a way of life. Maybe someday they will grow up as the powers-that-be and change their country's laid back ways. Realize that the world does not only revolve on them that they should also have to keep up with it's demand of globalization.

The power of thinking: spontaneity

2007-12-24T10:56:00.000-08:00

"I don't need to know every single detail before I get involved in something new. And its much better if I don't know too much ahead of time. Too many details would confuse me, overwhelm me, or give me reasons to back out of something that I should dive right into. I'll grab all of of my spontaneous impulses and take that leap of faith. All signs indicate that I will land squarely on my feet."

First of all, please yourself!

2007-12-23T19:12:00.000-08:00

Actually in the blogosphere there's an unwritten mandate, that is, write whatever pleases you. READ ALOUD: write whatever pleases you.

You are not writing for the sake of being read or to be criticized. You write because you just want to share things about you and your world around to others. Now it's up to them, your readers, if they would agree or disagree with you. I've yet to find a writer who could persuade everyone to just do the former solely.

Autografication, my fellow blogger Quentin Xavier from OZ pretty sums up what I am trying to convey here. He's not limiting himself to a particular topic, which is why he's a prolific blogger. He blogs about almost everything. Creativity stems up from having freedom and from thinking out-of-the box more often if not always. Just imagine the world if everybody thinks and behaves the same. It would be oh-so-boring monotonous you'll just cut your throat yourself than live.

Memorable dreams

2007-12-22T08:17:00.000-08:00

I'd like to share you some of my unforgettable dreams I had them when I was growing up and also of the most recent ones. All of them baffles me up to this day, and I am still clueless what's their meaning.

According to Wikipedia dreams consists of images, thoughts and feelings experienced while asleep. Their contents and/or purpose are poorly understood, but until now have been a topic of speculation and interest since the very beginning.

(1) Flying contagious superhero

I dreamt of being a caped crusader with the ability to fly and when I touch bystanders they're immediately transformed into my clone and followed me flying all over the city. According to a website I found, flying is an expression of our desire to break free of restrictions and limitations. A desire to be free and above all difficulties and the desire to dominate and be above others. It makes sense because during that time in my life I was not that out to my family yet.

(2) My own wake

It's eerie to dream about a wake when the one inside the coffin is you. The dream starts with me walking in a throng of mourners wearing the black mourning clothes and as I pass by them they turn to me as if they can see me but with no expression at all. Actually the faces of the people were unknown to me but later on in my life I got to know them one by one and remembered that I saw them in this dream. If the meaning of this dream is an end to one thing and a beginning of another it is safe to assume it is also related to my coming out.

(3) Going to work naked

I also had this freakish dream most recently where I went to work (imagine this!!!) on the buff. It started without a shirt first, then the next day my pants were off and finally with only my hand covering my thingie. Although I didn't minded even though my neighbors were looking at me only in my birthday suit. The dream analysis said that this is an expression of my unwillingness to let people see the "real" me and that unconsciously encouraging me to become more open with my feelings and more accessible emotionally. To which I say it's next to impossible since here in DR they're a little bigoted in these sort of stuffs and I'm not about to jeopardize my position if I come out to them.

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-12-21T20:06:00.000-08:00

Zac-culent Youth

Just so you know

Nick: Zacquisha
Age: 21
Zodiac: Libra
Ethnicity:
Eye color: Blue
Hair color: Brown
Height: 5'9"

As young as 11 y/o, Zac Efron entered the limelight when his parents found his interest in singing. He began improving his voice by taking-up singing lessons, and one way or another he ended up in several theater productions.

It was with the highly popular Disney Channel movie 'High School Musical' was he gain public attention he was christened to be the ' poster boy for tweenyboppers'. Indeed, he is an epitome of being young and hip.

He's a baseball aficionado, his priceless possession is his autographed baseball collection. A huge fanatic to SanFo Giants.

He loves pets too, in fact they have 2 Australian shepherd dogs and a Siamese cat. Oh so cute and cuddly just like him.

Hi5's Spanish Cuties

2007-12-21T19:41:00.000-08:00

The power of thinking: helpful

2007-12-20T11:24:00.000-08:00

"Get your point across and connect the dots. Speak their language and come to their aid and do some simple explaining. Gratitude gives people a long memory. If you continue coming to people's aid today, you will be reaping huge rewards for a long time to come."

A Green Apple a day, keeps the bigots away

2007-12-19T10:37:00.000-08:00

Words can wound someone more than a sword itself. It can be used as a powerful weapon. The hurt it impales never ceases not until erased by another. That's how powerful it is.

Now, imagine a world without a freedom of speech. A world without words. It's utterly unimaginable. Would you agree to that?

Such is the blog author of 'Berdeng Mansanas' who willfully crafts words into expressing what his thoughts are. A true writer in heart never fails to turn the most mundane topic into a wonderful and evocative pieces of art.

100th Post

2007-12-18T19:08:00.000-08:00

I am proud that I have reached 100th post albeit the time constraints I have experienced lately. So it is rightful to extend my gratitude to those bloggers and visitors who may have added me in their list or graced my humble blog more than once.

The number 100 has a conjunctive meaning of individuality and aggressive initiation of effort toward a goal and understanding by experience and the use of reasoning. All of which have been and until now the backbone of all the authored posts. The goal is very simple as it is to serve as a storehouse of information for the community. To share my experience so that others may understand what they're going through. And lastly, to solicit reasoning from the readers as to expound what could have caused these situations in their lives.

The number also signifies a single step on the road of our acceptance. A small step. But what is important here is that we have braved that step and will never falter with the succeeding ones even though we still have a long way to go.

Photo courtesy of Mallorca Photo Blog

The power of thinking: effort and reward

2007-12-17T17:55:00.000-08:00

"I need to see the direct relationship between effort and reward. So if I wasn't expecting much, I won't invest much. If I think there's a chance for a real success, I will go ahead and give it all I've got."

Forgetful me

2007-12-15T23:57:00.000-08:00

This video reminded me of something I was before, a BITCH without a cause;

It's true that sometimes we go ballistic over something that we ourselves is at fault. I remember about getting mad at the people I live with because I can't find my book. It was the exam week and I have not even open a single page of that book . I am a chronic crammer. I was shouting at everybody and was so pissed off I nearly broke up with my ex. With the fury I had that time, I was throwing things and all. Shame! shame! shame! It turned out I lent it to my classmate.

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-12-14T18:53:00.000-08:00

Mo-ore than a Man

Just so you know

Nick: Shemoo
Age: 37
Zodiac: Taurus
Ethnicity: Dutch and African American
Eye color: Brown
Hair color: Black
Height: 6'

Shemar Moore is a former model who won the hearts of the fans because of his high profile,

almost nude and erotic modeling.

He won Emmy awards for his role as Malcolm Winters

in the Young and Restless.

His primary reason for modeling is to pay his tuition fee while he was in college taking up Communications. Now besides modeling, he acts and hosts shows one of them is every gayman fave; the Miss Universe pageant.

It was rumored that he is a gay but he vehemently denied it, saying that he loved women and they were God's greatest creation. Then he was spotted in a gay nudist beach in Hawaii. Oooops! Mr. Moore is Mr. Denial? Dude, it's okay to be on the down low, especially if it's with me. Hehehehe!

The power of thinking: growth

2007-12-13T11:13:00.000-08:00

"Today I should be able to sense a new beginning. This will most likely occur in my personal life, although I could see me transitioning from a professional role to a personal role, blurring the boundaries. I want growth (wherever it may be), be generous with my positive feedback. I should amp up my enthusiasm and toss it around liberally. Be an active participant in my own life, not just a contented spectator."

Hi5's Brazilian Hotties

2007-12-12T10:47:00.000-08:00

The intense asterism of Saphiroboys

2007-12-11T03:24:00.000-08:00

Saphiroboys' blog is as unique as it is. I especially like how the author uses different hues in his slides of pictures of cute boys from Germany. For reasons that I don't have any idea, but it seems to be working because in each slide of photo you can see how sometimes the subject itself changes aesthetically. That's why I chose 'asterism' in my title to describe this uniqueness, which is a property unique to the gem that might have been the source of this blog's name.

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-12-11T03:16:00.000-08:00

Evan-tually in love

Just so you know:

Nick: Cevans

Age: 26

Zodiac: Gemini

Ethnicity: American

Eye Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Hair Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Height: 6'1/2"

Chris Evans was born to a dentist father and a mother dancer. He has 3 other siblings, one of which have inspired him to take acting.

After he had graduated from high school,

he expressed his interest in acting and started auditioning for a couple of roles. Then eventually landed a role in a TV series from them on he had jump-started his career. But he got his big break when he made the movie in 'Cellular',

the movie was not that spectacular as expected. When he played the role of

"Johnny Storm" in Fantastic Four, critics began to notice him and the internet community began to adore his au naturelle physique. He got voted as # 18 in 2006 'E! 101 Sexiest Celebrity Bodies' and People Magazine's 'Hottest Bachelors'.

He loves animals and is a vegetarian. He is also a down-to-earth type of guy. All the more making me fall for him. I just wish I could lie my head on top of that carpeted chest

while he whisper sweet nothings to my ear. Sweet!!!

Still young @ 95

2007-12-08T21:34:00.000-08:00

Recently I went to my bf's grandma 95th birthday. The celebration was simple and between close relatives only. So I felt very elated when I was invited because they knew me for a long time already but I still got butterflies in my stomach while I was there. I don't know why I still have the jitters when me and my boyfriend have been together for more than 2 years now.

It's amazing to see her grandma still very active and agile. She shows a radiance around her that night and you will see that she's very happy despite of being alone(she's been a widow for a long time) and of her old age. She's very accommodating even for someone very foreign as me, I am the odd-man out in the party. As I was there observing her I couldn't help but think of the inevitable; getting old.

How is it like to be an old-gay man? Am I going to age gracefully like my bf's grandma? Or will I suffer debilitating diseases like AD (Alzheimer's Disease) or other kind of diseases that may lead to a bedridden state? They're just a few questions that actually plagued my mind that time. All of it have scared me a lot. Getting old is everyone's business, while aging gracefully is an art.

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I guess all the answers will be how I live my life now at the present and how I plan what will happen in the future. The truth is I said to myself when I was still a kid that I might only live until the age of 70 or at the least. Now I still have at least 4 more decades to prove my existence in this world, live my life as it should be and leave a wonderful something in its place. That's how it's going to be.

When love replaces friendship

2007-12-08T11:41:00.000-08:00

My Own Private Idaho

I've finally had a chance to watch this movie which I've been wanting since I was seventeen. When I saw it where I usually rent my DVD's it's still out so I have to wait until it was returned. Anyways the wait was well worth it because the movie was awesome that is if you are an art movie connoisseur. It is a critically acclaimed movie and also a gay movie classic which definitely a must-have and must-watch for every PLU, just like James of the film Shortbus who inferred the former when he came out.

The movie centers on two street hustlers, Mike (River Phoenix)

and Scott (Keanu Reeves)

embarking on a soul search that takes them to Mike's hometown in Idaho (hence the title) and then to Italy in search of Mike's mother. Scott is the son of the wealthy mayor and claims he's a rogue and that he hustles mainly because he wants to rebel. Mike, however, is a narcoleptic gay and has no other means of support. They've develop a strong friendship that is tested by Scott's ambivalence to street life and his forthcoming inheritance, as well as Mike's budding affection for him.

One particular interesting scene in the movie which Phoenix re-wrote himself is the camp fire scene where Mike professes his love for Scott implicating that his character was gay whereas Gus Van Sant had originally made it more obscure. Scott did not take Mike's feelings seriously and married a girl. Reeves reportedly was uncomfortable with this aspect of the film. He said in an interview that although he is not against gays or anything he won't have sex with guys. That he would never do that again on film. Could it be that he is afraid that he would be taking it with him on the real life just like what happened to River Phoenix?

Hi5's Canadian Cuties

2007-12-07T12:41:00.000-08:00

The power of thinking: resilience

2007-12-05T09:20:00.000-08:00

"I won't turn my back on certain obligations, even if they prevent me from following my heart's desire. I'll do what is a must while holding onto a place where my imagination can roam freely."

Do let John go down on me

2007-12-04T11:03:00.000-08:00

THE ARTIST

Reginald Kenneth Dwight or mostly known as Sir Elton John is one of the 70's music most dominant force. He has also been named the second most played artist on British radio over the past 20 years after George Michael. Some of his famous characteristics are his ability to quickly craft unique melodies, his rich tenor and now baritone voice, his classical and gospel-influenced piano, the flamboyant fashions and on-stage showmanship. The latter according to him were his way of letting go after such a restrictive childhood.

He has been heavily involved in the fight against AIDS since the late 1980s and continues to be a champion for the LGBT social movements up to this day. He established the Elton John AIDS Foundation in 1992, intending to direct 90 percent of the funds it raised to direct care, and 10 percent to AIDS prevention education. He also announced his intention to donate all future royalties from sales of his singles in the U.S. and UK to AIDS research.

John married German recording engineer Renate Blauel but they divorced four years later. John later renounced his bisexuality and came out as being gay instead. He met his Canadian-born partner David Furnish, a former advertising executive and now film maker, in 1993 and on 2005, they entered into a civil partnership.

Within the music industry, Elton is sometimes known as "Sharon", a nickname originally given to him by good pal Rod Stewart.

In the song 'Don't let the sun go down on me' which is the first song in his album Caribou, he sings to someone he has helped and from whom he is now experiencing rejection.

THE SONG

I can't light no more of your darkness
All my pictures seem to fade to black and white
I'm growing tired and time stands still before me
Frozen here on the ladder of my life

Too late to save myself from falling
I took a chance and changed your way of life
But you misread my meaning when I met you
Closed the door and left me blinded by the light

Don't let the sun go down on me
Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see
I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free
But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

I can't find, oh the right romantic line
But see me once and see the way I feel
Don't discard me just because you think I mean you harm
But these cuts I have they need love to help them heal

THE VIDEO

An asian taste of the American Dream

2007-12-03T10:37:00.000-08:00

Me and my blogfriend Christian of 'Queer Culture Clash' share a fascination in learning about other cultures. It is an interest that a few people can or may have the opportunity to be into. And the fact that the liberal outlook in life is still uncommon for most of us Asians, just imagine if one have this chance to be in a country with a culture totally opposite to ours.

His blog tells about his everyday encounter of these differences while I, on the other hand, just interjects one or two posts about my observations about Dominicans every now and then.

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-12-02T20:17:00.000-08:00

Wu-nderful man

Just so you know:

Nick: Daniel

Age: 33

Zodiac: Libra

Ethnicity: Chinese

Eye Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Hair Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Height: 6'

Daniel Wu is a Hongkong actor who started his career year 1997 as an entertainment model,

he later ventured in directing movies.

Although Daniel continued to star in dozens of movies, his acting prowess was recognized in 2004 in “One Nite in Mongkok” and “New Police Story”. He won best supporting actor at the prestigious Golden Horse(the Chinese Oscar version) award with the later.

His directing debut, “The Heavenly Kings” was released in April 2006 but he won the best new director award the 26th Hong Kong Film Awards in 2007.

He is an avid Wushu-practicioner, a kind of Chinese martial arts, keeping him fit and lean. Making him so yummy!!!

Remembering the dreadful

2007-12-01T21:40:00.001-08:00

Originating from sub-Saharan Africa during the 20th century, AIDS has claimed more than 25 million casualties, making it one of the most destructive epidemics in recorded history.

25 years since then people are still dying from it. Misconceptions such as (1) spread through casual contact, (2) sex with virgins can cure it, (3) homosexual men and drug users are the only infected, (4) anal intercourse alone and (5) open discussion about it will lead to increased rates of homosexuality and AIDS, have not helped in the fight against it.

The mortality have never dwindled across the 7 continents of the world. In fact the numbers are still rising , as of 2007 the figures shows that Asia have topped the list and Oceania is at the bottom. The only weapon potent we have is information dissemination, keeping the people informed about the disease would finally help us eliminate if not control it.

It's already a giant step for this top three countries (in terms of infected people) have put up AIDS Awareness activities to jump up our focus in curbing its rise.

Chinese have distributed brochures in the streets and promoted safe sex by posting warning signs on hotel bed stands. The greatest numbers of infected people in China are from unprotected sexual intercourse between sex workers and their clients.

In United States, President Bush have asked the congress to double the stated funds for AIDS relief to a whopping US $ 30 billion over the next five years. He also saw the need to rededicate and turn the tide against it. He plans to travel to sub-Sahara Africa(where it all began) next year to extend his help to 2/3's PWA who lives there.

A concert was held in Johannesburg, South Africa whereas roughly 50,000 people attendees have flocked the venue.

Ludacris, Razorlight, Goo Goo Dolls and Annie Lennox are among the ones who have graced the said concert. Even the rock band Queen, which lost Freddie Mercury dreadfully have made their new song 'Say It's Not True' freely available for download from the band's website. Roger Taylor, Queen's drummer have reinforced Mandela's take on the disease and said "We have to be aware, we have to protect ourselves and those we love. No one is safe from infection."

The power of thinking: optimism with care

2007-11-30T10:11:00.000-08:00

"I want to believe in the best possible outcome, but I should also put much effort into exploring what could go wrong. The power of positive thinking can truly help, but it's not smart to avoid the facts."

DR on my lens - Motels ala Las Vegas

2007-11-28T15:10:00.001-08:00

If the Philippines have their Pasay and Old Manila as their sin city, Manfresa and San Isidro are DR's version. It is where you can find lots of 'cabanas' or motels situated on both sides of the avenue. The place has so many lights that it can be mistaken as Las Vegas, I wonder how they can maintain them even with the 'apagones' (blackouts) every now and then. I have been in almost all of them and they boast of a lot of amenities. One particular amenity that fancied me is that they have automated and glass door shower area that's so costly in the Philippines it could only be in the executive suite, (I have been to our own motels too and I know what I am saying is true.) but here they're just from a normal suite.

In most of them you will have to have a car to go inside because they're a drive thru' type of motel. Nobody sees you while you go inside the garage. One more move that's perfect for PLU doing the down low which is mostly the case here in DR.

From Square One, Closing

2007-11-28T11:59:00.000-08:00

....... a child.

It took some time for the abuses to stop. It wasn't me who have brought up the matter to other elders. It was another cousin that he was also doing the same abuses. However he was just apprehended but was never incarcerated. "Bantay Bata (Child Watch)" is not yet known during that time. They chose to shut up for what matters most was the sake and name of the clan. Our family hold the municipality the same as the Marcoses did during his regime. The case would mean disrespect from the community. So no word came up. It angered me so much deep inside. I am just a nobody.

Again fate stepped in as my family failed to have a decent life in the province even if we're near our relatives. Life got harder for us so my Dad decided to pawn our house to my grandfather. He accepted it. I can't believe it, he should be helping us instead of putting us knee deep in the mud. My dad was devastated but at least we have some money to start on. When we get back to Manila we started our life again. We tried fitting in a single rented room in the city. Everything was there, the living room, the kitchen, the bedroom. We had a communal bathroom where everyone in that same house were using. The house had other tenants and all of them were family just like us. We were in squalor. The hardships in our life had me more occupied than my budding homosexuality. Everything was thrown at the back.

It didn't take long when our funds have depleted, and we were forced to look for another place to live. Wonder of wonders, there's another relative have rescued us. We ended up living in the southern part of Metro Manila. Life over there wasn't any better. We didn't pay rent but we took care of the property. And when I said took care, it means doing the herculean task of making the place habitable. When we arrived the place was a wreck, a small-hill with big ipil-ipil trees can be found in the backyard a throng of mosquitoes guarded it. Me and my dad flattened the mount of soil with our own bare hands under the scorching sun. We planted crops there so we can get by. Having less than enough, we crawled out of poverty. Time flew and little did we know that we were already young adults.

During the elementary school years I was already showing hints of queerness. I always played with girls. More involved in cultural activities and never did bother to learn any type of sports. My classmates started teasing me but I paid no attention them. I was happy being what I am. Life went on until one day when I was in the 6th grade I met this guy. He's way older than me. He was a street vendor selling cigarettes. I was resting midway from my walk to my house and sitting under a roofed lot. He approached me and started to ask me some questions. He seemed to be a nice guy. We talked about a lot of things. He was amazed that I know more than my age. He was amazed about me knowing more about SEX. He dared me to put it in practice with him. We lured me into fucking him in a vacant storage house that's where he taught me how to fuck his ass. I didn't like it at all but I remembered getting the hardest boner I ever had. I never came but the event solidified my attraction to guys. After that we never saw each other again. I continued walking the same route hoping that we would cross paths again. We never did but then I met a handsome priest who was very fond of me. He gave me toys and asked me to pass by the church everyday. And so I did. He was abnormally sweet to me. He liked giving me a body rub. I didn't see anything sexual in it so I allowed him. However, before something might have happened to us he was transferred. I missed him, his touches and his encouragements. I knew then that I was different.

It was the sophomore year when I came out. Disappointing half of my female classmates who had a crush on me. I am not a looker but I was always topping the class. The year before that I had my first and last girlfriend. We never broke up. I just realized it wasn't her that I was falling for it was my male best-friend. He left before he ever knew that I was attracted to him. While the poor girl never knew the reason why I dumped her.

High school life was indeed the happiest time of my life. I've got lots of friends, including the ones that have introduced me more into sex. I've got lots of boyfriends too during that time.

They've helped me hone my talents in giving pleasure to the same sex. Me and my gay pals counted partners more than we could. Year 1986, Rock Hudson was diagnosed with the gay disease. Sex was just sex, as we were so ignorant then.

Even with so much disgusto, we spent one summer vacation back in our province. Memories came back reeling as I had to face my uncle who had molested me. He did change a bit he became somewhat ashamed and avoided me while I was there. Maybe because I was out and proud already and he saw the effect of what he had done to me. Although I never blamed him. And even though we have grown up, my dearest cousin was still the apple of the eyes my relatives. Nothing have changed, I was the bad apple. I am still a nobody. He never have shown any signs that he remembered whatever had happened between us. His non-chalant irked me heavily that I turned my attention to a younger male cousin.He was the one who had asked help from his parents when we were being molested by my uncle. He had grown a bit of a young man thus a prey to my eyes. I had an evil plan to seduce my younger cousin to doing it with me. One time, I went over his house and since we live nearby I had no trouble asking him if we can play together. Same trick, we tussled and hustled then when I got the chance I grabbed his crotch. He was aroused obviously as his shorts were already wet with precum. He haven't ejaculated before so when he saw the wet spot, he was intrigued by it:

"Hey what happened? Did I just pissed on myself?"
"You don't know what that is?"
"Nope!"
"It's your love juice.......It comes out whenever you get excited. Are you excited?"
"Yes I am!"
"You want me to continue?"
"Please do!"

And so I did. Armed with all the skills I learned from my past experiences I gave him the blowjob of his life, which he really liked and enjoyed. I let him come inside my mouth. He asked me to do it once again the day after that. And then the day after that. Until he was so much into it, that I started feeling guilty. One time after we did it he had a seizure. He was epileptic. I felt more guilty than ever before in my life. Not only I am a gay and he was my cousin but I had repeated the vicious cycle. The prey now became the predator. I realized that it had to stop. But he wanted to continue doing it as soon as he recovered after a few days from his seizure;

"Let's do it again, please!"
"No I don't think we should"
"Why not?"
"It's not right."
"But I want you to."
"I said no and never. It's just a one time thing"
"Please!!!"

He was so persistent that he grabbed and kissed me. I kicked him on the face and got him shocked and so was I. Confused like hell, I left him sobbing. I did not mind what happened to him at all. I scurried back to Manila all by myself. That was the last time I saw him. My guilt is still within me until.......

"Hi cousin!"
"Hey!"
"What's up?"
"Am fine, it's good you were able to chat me."
"Yeah I got your addie from -------"
"Oh yeah!"
"So how's your life there in D.R.?"
"Oh just work and stuff"
"Hey have you heard about -------(1st male cousin)? He left his mom and lived with his girlfriend now!"
"Really?I didn't know."

My female cousin news got me excited. Although I have decided long ago not to be bothered about anything that is related to my relatives, I inquisitively asked;

"What about Uncle -------?
"Oh him, he's still a bachelor."
"Hmmmmm!"
"He's living alone in the province."

I could not elaborate no more as I might give her an idea.

"Hey, one time I would like you to chat with my pop, mom and -------"
"Sure why not?"

We had chatted a lot of other things whenever she saw me online she buzzes me. One time she buzzed me and told me she's with someone who wants to see me on cam. I opened my webcam and saw him (the 2nd male cousin) and was flabbergasted. He was an adult now. We said our casual 'hi's and 'hello's' until I asked them if he's already married. They said he wasn't fit to be engaged because of his condition. I sulked and felt remorse. Their answer was not enough to take the guilt from me. It have bitten me once again. The years that have passed failed to erase it. Albeit the predator in me preys no more.

Enter his enchanted world

2007-11-27T18:13:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since the author of this blog 'Shizahi's World'

and I have met each other personally. We were college friends before and come to think of it we just found ourselves online after 3 long years. It was fun as we shared some of the things we've been into and the next thing we were already talking about our own blogs. I couldn't believe that the most admirable creations he did while were still in college have made it through the web. Of course I will not be so damn uptight not to share you his blog which is an extension of his overflowing creativity.

His fantastic world of gargoyles,

centaurs,

mermans

and other out-of-worldly creations would never fail fancying you. Even the bugs

and cacti

alike have not escaped his lens nor his witty captions.

A stunning visual and poetic entries would surely entice you to visit this one of a kind blog.

Enter his world, enter the world of Shizahi.

The power of thinking: practicality

2007-11-27T00:53:00.000-08:00

"I don't need to spend more than what I have, especially if pleasure is involved. I won't justify my actions that satisfies my desires, physically or emotionally. Practicality will pay off for me better than indulgence."

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-11-26T10:38:00.000-08:00

scaLE AND RO-K me bABE

Just so you know:

Nick: (anyone knows what's his nick)

Age: 21

Zodiac: Gemini

Ethnicity: Japanese and Brazilian

Eye Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Hair Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Height: 6'

I can't blame MISTERHUBS if he gets infatuated with this guy. Who wouldn't be? I bet even a straight guy will go nuts if he would undress in front of them. He is truly an epitome of male beauty. An almost perfect creation made just for the gays' admiration.

Leandro Okabe is a PE student from Sao Paulo, Brazil. He began modeling in Asia first before discovered by a Brazil agency. The fashion industry is now looking for more of this hybrids from Brazil, and he was also a top choice.

He is such a hottie that every blogger in the gay blogosphere have blogged about him.

Anyways, if you are wondering what does the tattoo on his ribcage means, it is a chinese character for the word 'luck' or 'good fortune'.

From Square One, Mid-half

2007-11-25T15:12:00.000-08:00

.......he never came but that was the beginning of our many sneaky exploration whenever we find opportunity.

My father came from his long stay abroad working in Mediterranean region. That's the first time I got to know and see him in flesh. He was never really there as I was growing up. He had a lot of money with him and was able to secure us a house in the province. Fate have decided what's going to happen with the secret rendezvous between me and my cousin. Our sexual exploration put in halt not giving him a chance to return to me the favor. When our house was built we left theirs and settled in the province. My father chose to be near to our relatives with the hope of them taking good care of us. He was very confident that with them around our life will be so much better. So he thinks. Little does he know my nightmarish childhood have just begun.

The apparent favoritism in the family made me a rogue child. I have done every bad trick in the book, I became a kleptomaniac, I became a chronic liar. Hence the black sheep of the clan. I even didn't know what's happening with me then. I just knew something was missing in my life. And because of my secretive nature, one time I stumbled upon a stack of magazines of the stepbrother of my grandmother. The magazine was full of naked male pictures and sex stories and upon seeing them a flame reignited in me. I got hooked. Whenever there was a chance I sneak up inside his room and browse over the magazines. They were magnificent in my eyes, the perfect abs, the contours of the muscles, the different shape of the dicks. And even the subliminal messages like power, submission, passion and ecstasy that those pictures convey were obvious to my very young mind. And because I was aware of all of these I could have exuded a come-on appearance, like the effect of pheromones to the bees, thus attracting adults to me. The sneaking up continued until one time I was caught en flagrante delicto by an uncle;

"What the fuck are you doing there?"

I was dumbfounded and don't know how to respond. Although I was not doing any sexual act during that time, I have no way of scurrying out of that situation. The magazine was on my hand and I was sweating profusely. I was looking a pre-coital position of two men.

"Aha! What is this?"
"Oh I just found that under the bed Uncle"
"And who said you're allowed to see this kind of things?"
"Nobody!"
"Did you tell that you saw this to anyone?"
"No Uncle"

When I said no, his eyes lit up a bit. He grinned devilishly. I didn't know if it was my appearance or that he knew already that stuff was under there that gave me away he continued his 3rd degree questioning until,

"Did you like what you see?"
"Uhmmmmm I don't know"
"You're sweating a lot, I know you like it"

I bit my lip and decided I was caught red-handed there's no way I can lie no more.

"Yes, I like what I see"
"Do you like this (pointing the thing between his thighs)?"

Am scared I did not know what to do. He opened his tight pants and extracted his member from his smelly underwear. His cock was crooked to the left, monstrous in size and did not look delectable as portrayed in the pictures of the magazine. I gulped and waited for what's going to happen next. I knew I was about to plunge in a pile of deep shit.

He was already hard and drooling with wet and sticky precum. He went near my face and hit me with it. I didn't like the smell at all. I guess what my other relative said that he was nuts is true. That he was a bit of a person from the loony bin. Maybe that explains his lack of hygiene. Well if he's nuts, definitely his nuts won't be smelling good at the least. I tried not to open my mouth but he pinched my jaw until I was forced to open it. I cried but he told me not to or else he's going to hit me with my grandpa's cane. I know that cane was hard and it would hurt me badly. Quickly I stopped my sobbing and did what he asked me to do. He face fucked me when I finally opened my jaw he was humping like crazy until he reached his climax. Minded not that my teeth was scraping his cock badly.

And when he was about to come, he shoved it entirely that I thought I was going to choke to death. He let go everything that went inside my gut. He did not stopped until I did not get the rest of his cum. All my eyes were red and I had a snotty nose from that intrusion. Afterwards he slapped me with it until finally its dried he treated me like I am a towel. He did not bother to ask me if I was okay. If I liked what he have done to me. All I remember is that my body was shaking and I knew my childhood was gone forever. He said we will be doing it again, I almost puked. I did not want to, but who am I to say no I am just his nephew. I am just .......

Faith or Fake

2007-11-24T12:16:00.000-08:00

What makes a person a believer? Many people would say that sometimes you just need faith, others would say it's better to see or hear with your own senses before believing. I'd say initially in our life we tend to be the first premise as we rely on adults such as our parents, teachers or other elders as our source of knowledge. During that time we don't need to rationalize as we are forced to believe that they know better than us. But as we grow and assimilate in-your-face facts we encounter in our daily struggle our faith weakens. A lot of things gets clearer in our minds and our logic and reasoning suddenly weigh more than what they're teaching us. They call this stage of one's life many names one in particular is 'adolescent angst'. Usually as an effect of seeing the truth, we lose respect to these so-called morality guardians; parents, teachers and especially the revered people of the church. We rebel that's what they say.

Religion is a prickly subject. Sometimes discussing it would end you up in a heated argument. Some people even loses it whenever you don't agree with them. I had my shares and most of the time they call me agnostic, atheists or the worst a 'son-of-devil'. I kept mum to any of these because I should know myself better. Now, don't get me wrong I am neither one of those labels believe me. I just have my own way of seeing things differently and that's all. One time me and a female co-worker discussed the veracity of the Holy Bible. She asked me if I read and believe it. I said yes but I do not believe everything in it only some parts that are credible enough to win my adoration and really put it in practice. Stubbornly she blurted out, "why not the whole?" It's because some of the passages are illogical and may have been outdated already. And others have been twisted to fit whatever the church wants us to think. Guess what happened next? She deliberately called me an atheist or the son-of-devil because I do not believe the Holy Bible in its entirety. To this I kept mum. You think a godless person would just sit and shut his mouth after all that swearing? I think not.

Now after reading the first two paragraphs above you might be led that indeed I am agnostic or an atheist. Would it surprise you if I say I still go to church, prayer meetings or even bible studies whenever I can? Most of the time I get smirks from the other attendees (hmmmmmm so much for hypocrisy) but I don't mind them at all. Sad to say this does not mean that I have been converted. Yet my principles and beliefs are still intact, nothing new nothing less. It's just that I am still holding on to the thought that there's someone or something(human-like, alien, or concept) above all of us omnipresent-ly taking open-minded care of his creatures. A supreme being of wit and wisdom to understand and withstand the flaws of human race. After all of what I have shared, this question might be bugging you; 'What drives people to change their view about something?'

Recently a friend told me a shocking revelation. Something about religious congregations. Obviously it was the reason he defected and now living a normal life. The revelation is so shocking I again started questioning, again my views were challenged. I know we are already plagued of such and such all over the media, however it's different if it is a first-hand information. Now I know why they're so quick to impose that faith should be beyond reason which gives them immense power and authority over their herds. Poor believers who have succumbed to misleading teachings of the church. I pity them. To give you a hint on what he revealed I'm posting these film clips, old and new;

Let me ask you once again, have I changed your view?

The power of thinking: courage

2007-11-23T16:59:00.000-08:00

"I've done my hard work already, so I won't bail by taking the easy way out. I will see both sides of an emotionally charged issue, I won't be afraid to take a stand. "

From Square One, Intro

2007-11-22T18:24:00.000-08:00

It was said that in order to discover one true-self you need to go back from the very beginning. Much of what we are now are just reverberations or repercussions of what had happened to us in the past particularly in our precious childhood. With this in mind I want to share one of the reasons how I became GAY. I said 'one of the reasons' because I still believe it's a combination of sort. I was incestuously involved with some same-sex relative starting at a very young age of five and this went on until I had it not only with one but three of them.

I was clueless back then that what we're doing is taboo or mores in the society. Neither do I have the idea of what a child molestation is. Youngsters are naturally sexual active as they tend to be exploratory in this period of life and also because of this innocence they are usually violated. I know many of you may have experienced the same and had been emotionally ravaged by it. Some of us just kept mum or have intentionally erases the said experiences in their memories. Good thing now most of the societies with the help of media have acted on protecting the children from the perversion of adults, blood related or not.

Having a nomadic family back then I was accustomed to transferring from place to place to live. And sometimes we have no particular or apparent reason at all but on this occasion we moved out because the place where we lived was burnt down by a big fire. And being a toddler as I was, I have no knowledge of what have transpired, but this story is not about that. All I know is that we sought refuge from a relative on my father's side and ended up living in a roof of a well-to-do relative who had an only child. His mom was my second mom by church rite.

Me and my male cousin were almost of the same age. Obviously we played together a lot. He had so many toys then which made me more envious of him because I never had one. Then he also went to an exclusive school and even got to be fetched by a school bus. While the poor me just walked to and from my public school everyday. His mom loved and pampered him so much. He was the center of attraction even to our other relatives. And I was a nobody compared to him, so a hidden desire towards him grew in my heart. Unknown to me that I was already nurturing that feeling towards the same sex.

One particular afternoon we were inside his room playing with his GI Joe's and Transformer action figures. When we eventually got tired we decided to wrestle. We hustled and tussled on top of his bed as we go on tickling each other in a juxtaposed position. I accidentally brushed my hand on his nether region. Got nervous how he would react but instead it seemed like he felt nothing about it. Once again I touched him intentionally that's when I felt the hardness under his PJ's. We were all wet with our sweat maybe because of the activity or because it was high noon then. I saw his face blushed whenever I did that and apparently he liked what I am doing too.

"Oh keep doing that!" he exclaimed while I run my hand up and down on his small member.

"You like it???"

"Yeah it feels so nice, keep rubbing it."

That's when I decided to make a bold move of outlining the shape of his crotch. I am not sure what I have felt but it was kind of exciting as his thing grew bigger and warmer on the palm of my hand. He pulled up his shirt and showed me his navel which then I started playing with my cute little fingers. He was so ticklish and laughing hard that I was afraid somebody might hear us. Good heavens it was siesta time so our folks were either sleeping or heavily watching daytime drama on the boobtube. I continued tickling him while we rolled and rolled over on top of his soft but small bed. I smelt his sweaty skin which is kind of sweet since we were still young then and I liked it so much that made me lick some of drops of sweat on his belly up to his two brown knobs on his chest.

His giggles turned into almost inaudible sighs. I continued smelling him while I reached over to cup his and decided to untie the PJ's he is wearing to see how big it was when hard. I was curious if it would look and smell the same as mine. When I pulled his white drawer the emanating aroma was so inviting and sweet that's why I dove in and smelt some more. He held my head in place so when he forcefully shoved me I was utterly helpless but I enjoyed it that I let out my tongue and lapped his mushy and pinkish member. His face grimaced with gusto and he whispered;

"Please put it inside you mouth!"

The warm feeling and inviting smell of his member made me obey him and I automatically swallowed it up to the hilt like what I am doing to a juicy banana. We never had proper training but maybe because of human instinct I bobbed my head while he continued humping me until we were both satisfied and exhausted. Of course .......

Cruising T-rooms

2007-11-22T11:30:00.000-08:00

Much to dismay media brouhaha over Walter Jenkins, George Michael and lastly Sen. Craig t-room affairs it did not stop the gays craving to have sex in public places. Who wouldn't want the thrill in that? The thing is we don't have the same freedom as the straight ones have, all the more adding to the excitement doing it.

Although this type of sexperiences for me is a thing of the past,I still wonder what if all the internet ruckus over the proper male etiquette in the toilet have gone over the roof. And by goodness gracious a gorgeous guy is pissing beside me giving me the hints, what should I do???

The power of thinking: harmony

2007-11-22T11:06:00.000-08:00

"I must have respect, I must have freedom, and I must have affection. Although finding all three in one place is tough, it is entirely possible. I will evaluate my current situation and ask for what is missing. An uncomfortable sacrifice may be required, but in the end I'll thank myself for fighting for what I believe in: MYSELF."

Hold your breath then free your mind

2007-11-21T18:57:00.001-08:00

Even in this ever-changing world it's no joke to find one's trueself. Sometimes it just a flip of the hand but more often than not it would take a whole lifetime. It's a journey that each one of us needs to trod no matter what the expectations are, in the end it is our will that surely will prevail. Such is the story of my blogfriend Kai,

though his life maybe full of heartaches and headaches of different proportions he's still trying to overcome all of these. And his account of the said tribulations were masterpiece stories that allows you to enter his world em by em. Boring not a single reader of "Low, Highs and Alibis" but keeping them wanting for more and more.

Rx: Daily Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-11-20T11:16:00.000-08:00

Max-imum surprise

Just so you know:

Nick: Max Orloff, Jan Dvorak

Age: 30

Zodiac: Aquarius

Ethnicity: Czech

Eye Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Hair Color: (anyone knows what's the color of his eyes???)

Height: 6'2"

Pavel is a hot porn star doing almost all the varieties ranging from gay to bisexual to solo jack-off sessions. He debuted in this industry in the year 1999 when William Higgings and a talent scout spotted him nude on a beach sun bathing. And he was the one who approached them.

He won the 2001 GayVN Editor's Choice Awards for his role potraying himself in "The Jan Dvorak Story". Maybe its the culture but like Johan Paulik he still consider himself straight eventhough he graced all those slutty porn films now he (okay, are you ready for this?) is retired and married a WOMAN!!!What in the world??? I know its a shame, shame, shame, that's so confusing. He bottomed, he sucked, he rimmed, he did everything imaginable but still he is straight.

The power of thinking: trust

2007-11-19T21:01:00.000-08:00

"I will walk away from those who aren't committed to helping me. It could be that there are people out there who are purposefully trying to sabotage my plan. I am too darn smart to fall into this sort of trap. I will prove to others that even though I may be happy and have a playful attitude, that doesn't mean that I am gullible."

What's cooking? The New Menudo - that is!

2007-11-19T10:52:00.000-08:00

I remember I was a teeny bopper then when I got infatuated with Madonna in her playboy magazine and with the then-famous boyband of my days; Menudo. But much to my surprise I am more aroused when I see the naiveness and the freshness of Ricky Martin. He became one of the subjects of my many cream dream that plague me almost every night. And in my true fashion, I became obsessed with him that I started doing choreography of almost all of their dance songs, one in particular "Like an Explosion". I even started imitating them wearing those striped socks that lands just below the knee in its length which they have sported in the 80's or what we called "the menudo look".

Little did I know that I am already showing my true colors to which it didn't escaped the attention of my classmates who begun teasing me. It didn't bother me at all since I am still in my teenage and happy go-lucky kind of life, and don't mind the sexual connotation of being labeled as "bakla (queer)". Now that I am in my adult life I was amazed to have stumbled upon the plan of reviving Menudo, which tickled all the memory and I started reminiscing.

Now, so much about my so-called life let's begin with Menudo's then and now. The group's originator was Edgardo Diaz of Puerto Rico, he tried a lot of combination of five boys and every member who reaches the age of 16 has to leave the group in the hopes of giving the group immortality.The group's name was coined when her sister, upon seeing the boys rehearsals under their driveway exclaimed, "Que mucho menudo hay aqui!", menudo which thus in this phrase means young men was stuck and eventually became the group's name. Over the years the group were continuously evolving with every change of member and has continued doing tours mall to mall or in every available TV show that they can perform. When he had grouped Charlie, Ray, Roy, Robbie and the most popular of them all; Ricky Martin (my crush)

that was the time he gained international attention as far as Philippines and Japan. Sadly when all the members have outgrown the age that they should be, and all of the said members were already out, the new ones have failed to compare in its popularity or fame, little by little they faded in the music scene. Eventually the name was sold to a Venezuelan investors.

Fast forward to 2007, just when the Reality TV sprouted like mushrooms after a storm, a show was made for reviving the group entitled "Making Menudo" and it was aired on MTV primetime. According to Menudo Entertainment the formula used for the old Menudo will be the same but this time with a twist, the age of staying in the group which was 16 was lengthened to 20. Giving more opportunities for the members to strut their stuff. The new Menudo's first single will be "More Than Words" on the same album name and sung by Jose (15), Chris(15), Emmanuel (16), Monti(18) and Carlos(18).

Their sound will have an urban/pop/rock feel in both English and Spanish versions.

Bring them on and let's see if one of them can steal my heart just like Ricky did.

Worrisome distance

2007-11-18T12:38:00.000-08:00

I've never thought that it would be very hard to bear the emotional impact of being distant to your loved ones. Although I may have brainwashed myself into thinking that I shouldn't be perturbed by any of these, it is inevitably likened to the waves of the seas crushing the stones of its shores. No I' m not that strong and willful as I would like you think, the truth is I am like a marshmallow inside. Waiting to melt and reduced to nothingness.

Lately, I got some bad news that my longtime boyfriend got hurt in a brawl after a drinking spree. I didn't know what to do, I cried and became worried so much I had a sleepless night. It is an awful feeling you wouldn't dare to have.

I almost thought of swimming the vast ocean just to be with him. To comfort him and take care of him.

Prayers can move mountains, that's what they say and which I came to believe. With a throng of internet friends I have I was able to gain not just one prayer from me but from all of them. They prayed for him and it worked! He just suffered a minor contusion and only a stitch is needed to be done.

Thanks for all of you guys who were with me in time of crisis, my heart goes for all of you!

The power of thinking: fluidity

2007-11-17T16:40:00.000-08:00

"I wish the action would settle down so I can be where the energy may take me. I won't try to control what's happening around me, for that will likely bring frustration instead of pleasure. "

The TIME is within our hands

2007-11-16T19:44:00.000-08:00

This ad from D&G is an out and loud expression of the unstoppable coming of our time. The time in which we will never be loathed nor besmirched again ever. It's the time for the freedom of one's sexual preference or lifestyle.

Hurray to Domenico and Stefano for heralding the time to come!!! Hurray to LGBT!!!

DR on my lens - Lush green Botanical Garden

2007-11-15T12:40:00.001-08:00

It's truly a herculean task keeping nature amidst the escalating pollution problem the world is now experiencing. But with the ambitious goal and a willing treasury of a government nothing can be impossible. Such is the amazing feat of Dominican Republic in maintaining the largest botanical garden

in the Caribbean. With approximately 2 million square meters of land, it is located within the heart of the capital; Santo Domingo.

And since it occupies a large amount of land you will need to ride a small train

to be able to go around and view the park. You can find exhibits of the indigenous flora and areas dedicated to palm trees and orchids. Some other exotic plants too from all over the world can be seen in the park. Also on the grounds is what was once the largest floral clock in the world.

A lot of you who may have visited Japan will agree that their Japanese Garden

is one of the most lovely in the world. I took a picture that befits a postcard image in its beauty and serenity.

And so they say, "if there's a will, there is a way!"

Don't let it end Jay!

2007-11-14T03:17:00.000-08:00

THE ARTIST

Jay Brannan is an American singer/songwriter and actor best known for his role "Ceth" in the movie SHORTBUS.

THE SONG

the sidewalk is rushing at my head againi’m lying on the street in the rain and windfrom doing forward rolls down avenue Awith my guitar on my back, don’t let it end this waysomehow i dialed my celli didn’t know i could get service in hellhow quickly can you get here, don’t know where i am dearfinally the world actually seems to be revolving around me

chorus

shoo-be-doo-be-doo-wopi overdid it at the soda shopthanks for being my girl at thei-don’t-know-when-to-stop sock hopyou held my head over the edge of the bedi remember it now, but at the time i thought i was deadyou put a pan there, and held back my hairhow can i repay you for saving me and my hardwood floor?

chorus

and when the world stopped spinning ’roundi picked the pan up off the groundi read my upheaves, much like tea leavesthey said it’s over, so get sober, or you’ll die again

chorus

THE VIDEO

This video gained him the hearts of his fans by not wearing a shirt while singing inside the toilet. Cute!!!

Casual sex inducing chemicals

2007-11-13T01:05:00.001-08:00

Although am still consistent with my abhorrence of the use of chemicals to affect human behavior. I can't help but wonder what if we have one that can help us engage into a casual sex. Would you be tempted to use it?

I saw this article, confirming that the chemical oxytocin greatly affects trust and generosity to strangers so much it is 80 % overwhelmingly accurate. Imagine if you combine oxytocin and sex pheromone,

we can come up with a concoction that would help us get who we want right away. Guys will be sexually generous and trusting and easily be coerced into doing ONS (one night stands). Eerie, right? But it could be possible, it's just a matter of time until someone can come up with this chemical, and probably it would be a best seller just like Viagra.

The power of thinking: leadership

2007-11-12T09:38:00.001-08:00

“I can’t be everywhere at once, as a leader I must have confidence in those who work for me.”

Reality bites

2007-11-10T20:32:00.000-08:00

I admire people with perspective in life and see humor in it. In my age now, I can say I've been there and done that but the sad thing was I never had the opportunity to make a record about it unlike the generation of today. Blogging is truly wonderful, now you can even take a picture of every second of your life and re-live it. Share it for the whole world to see, just like my blog friend Mandaya Moore-Orlis.

The story of his life, his lover and his set of friends is so inspiring that it definitely would make your day worthy of living, whether you're gay or not. Kudos to you Mandaya and more power to your friends. Thanks for linking up to B^2!!!

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-11-10T10:17:00.000-08:00

On Ben-ding the rules

Just so you know:

Nick: Benjie
Age: 29
Zodiac: Virgo
Ethnicity: English
Eye Color: Hazel Green
Hair Color: Blond
Height: 6'2"

A member of the Most Excellent Order of the British empire. Ben Cohen is a rugby legend who played as a center/wing player with an explosive power, inherent skill and incredible work rate on the pitch.

While he has a ready smile for everyone

he can be straight forward in dealing with people.

As a matter of fact, he is about to throw a party for his gay fans. A move that is so much un-athletic, since most of them does not want to be associated with PLU. A high proportion of his adoring fans are from the gay community so he opted to give them a gay night celebration in London in March.

Way to go Big Ben!!! Love yah!

My love of.......DOLPHINS

2007-11-08T20:19:00.001-08:00

It's been awhile now since I have been wanting to be associated with dolphins that I have chosen it as my animal representation. A lot of its character is what I was and is really emulating. Now I am beginning to think that I am obsessed by it. Just imagine I have dolphin posters, dolphin paper weights, dolphin bracelets. Even my laptop wallpaper and screensaver consists of (guess what?) dolphins. Here comes a new gadgetry that I wouldn't mind spending my moolah, well the only problem is I dunno if they have it here in DR.

An obsession you truly want to have

2007-11-08T20:17:00.000-08:00

Yes, I admit I am one of those who have that Peter Pan complex and longed to keep my youngness intact. How can I not be? Seeing these wonderful and yummy pictures of teens by my blog buddy "Current Obsession"

just make me keep wishing I could be young again. Hmmmmm so much have happened and invented in science and technology, haven't they found the "elixir of youth" yet? 'Coz I don't wanna go into a gamut of cosmetic surgery just like Jacko (have you heard that he's about to lose his Neverland ranch too?) Tsk! tsk! tsk!

Colors of my blog

2007-11-08T12:31:00.000-08:00

It was said that colors of our likings define our personality, and so is a blog wherein the prominent colors found here in speaks of my personality or goals of this blog.

When I was creating my template I opted for the color BLACK to be the overall background to signify my protest against sexual discrimination particularly that which LGBT community experiences. And that I will not relinquish anything or give up our fight. Titles of section are lettered in VIOLET which is a color preferred mostly by us but for me it is simply my desire to be understood by many. Blog post titles are colored BLUE because I long for our unification and your sensitivity to the topics whichever I discuss particularly concerning our whole being. RED texts defines my passion for life, leadership in my chosen field, and the power to steer my very existence in this world.

And last but not the least is the color GRAY for most of the texts which embodies that eventhough how much ambitious as I am I should still remain humble. Keep my feet on the ground. These are the colors of my blog, what are yours?

The power of thinking: patience

2007-11-08T04:06:00.000-08:00

"I will allow unfinished business to take its own course for a while, and not force this issue. I will let go of my control and allow circumstances to show me the best course of action."

Have you ever.......?

2007-11-07T23:21:00.001-08:00

Have you ever sneak up somebody before? I mean sexually, like putting your hands and grabbing a guys wang under the sheets or his drawers while his sleeping or drunk. Yeah it's really exhilarating at first, the thought of him hitting you when he wakes up or that he'll tell everybody what you were about to do with him. It's so scary but also very rewarding when the guy allow your advances. I've gotten my fare share of the same kind of experience and it turns out well just like in this movie:

It's a matter of making up a dialogue that'll he'll give in to your desires once he wakes up. Like for example; "Gusto kita at kailangan ko ito, sana wag mo akong bibiguin!" (I like you and I need this, I hope you won't fail me) those were my exact phrases when the guy woke up and I stopped sucking him to stare him in the eyes with a puppy look. I guess he could not say no for an answer, I am already gripping his thing on my hand. HEHEHEHEHH!

Show subtle signs that you like him so much before you got the chance to do this, look him directly in the eyes and then on his lips every once in awhile, then go stare at his bulge if there's an opportunity. Praise him about his looks and his body, and act on his indulgences. But of course, he has to know what you are already for this to be effective.

Et voila! He can be your boyfriend instantly that of course if he enjoyed what you've done to him. Now all you have to do is perfect your skills while waiting for that pouncing moment and everything will be A-OK.

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-11-07T11:19:00.000-08:00

Did jo-han-dle it well?

Just so you know:

Nick: Johan
Age: 29
Zodiac: Pisces
Ethnicity: Slovak
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 6'

An exclusive gay porn star for Bel Ami,

Johan admitted being bisexual yet most in his films he's versatile. He is a bright, charming and witty guy that you would like to be your boyfriend or husband and show to your folks. For me, I just love those green eyes and those yummy lips, I drooled over him the first time I saw one of his videos "Lucky Lukas". BTW, he earned the GayVN Hall of fame award yet chose not to do any more porn movies. Oh that's so sad......well he's still with Bel Ami though as the force behind-the-scenes only.

In 2002, young as he is he became the general manager for Bel Ami in Europe

and write

his own blog "Johan's Journal". Where he talks about projects and just about anything that the Bel Ami models focus their time in and out of the camera.

The power of thinking: inner beauty

2007-11-06T10:58:00.000-08:00

"I will take care of my need to look beautiful. Commit myself to make new friends, socialize and indulge on my senses. I won't let anyone take me out of my pleasures."

The children of the sea

2007-11-05T20:47:00.001-08:00

"El Mar"

I've never seen a movie so gory and disturbing as this one. Actually when I saw it I ended up having a nightmare. Well if you're into looking for something not Hollywoody films then this one is for you.

The story revolves around the three childhood friends; Ramallo(underground accomplice played by Roger Casamajor),

Manuel(religiously devoted played by Bruno Bergonzini)

and Francisca(Antonia Torrens as a nun that harbors the secrets of the three). Set during the Spanish Civil War, their lives were marked by a vengeful slaying of another child and they have carried this secret until they were adults.

The three reunited after a few years in a hospital for the care of tuberculosis. Where their lives have entwined again in desperation to find deliverance from its horrors. A particular interest here is that Manuel is trying to repress his sexual desires for Ramallo. He turns to religion in order to avert it, but to much dismay. (Does this sound a bell???) While Ramallo is particularly obsessed to be in the beach, hence the title "El Mar". Metaphorically signifying that the torment in our lives will one day find its calmness.

Although the casting was not that remarkable, their performance have suited the strange but beautiful story. The cinematography and sound effects succeeded to evoke you the feeling that there's hope to look forward to.

I am insatiably and dar-ren-gly in love

2007-11-05T20:13:00.000-08:00

THE ARTIST

Darren Hayes is an Australian singer-songwriter who with his partner in Savage Garden, have mades such hits as "I want you", "To the Moon and Back". After parting ways in 2001 he launched into a solo career with his album "Spin" with the hit single "Insatiable" which I really liked so much that I chose to put this in one of my blogs, although he had released a new one. The lyrics were meaningfully crafted, just look way past the music video and you will see that it was meant to describe the relationship between 2 guys.

He entered into a civil partnership with his boyfriend, Richard Cullen, who is also his animator and director, on June 19, 2006. But before the announcement of the said union, his sexuality had been constantly questioned by the media so when the wedding was made public long-term fans were no longer shocked.

THE SONG

When moonlight crawlsalong the streetChasing away the summer heatFootsteps outsidesomewhere belowThe world revolvesI let it goWe build our churchabove this streetWe practice lovebetween these sheetsThe candy sweetnessscent of youIt bathes my skin I'mstained by youAnd all I have todo is hold youThere's a racing in my heartI am barely touching you
[ Chorus ]
Turn the lights down lowTake it offLet me showMy love for youInsatiableTurn me onNever stopWanna taste every dropMy love for youInsatiable
The moonlight playsupon your skinA kiss thatlingers takes meinI fall asleep inside of youThere are no wordsThere's only truthBreathe in Breathe outThere is no soundWe move together up and downWe levitate our bodies soarOur feet don't eventouch the floorAnd nobody knowsyou like I doThe world doesn't understandBut I grow strongerin your hands
[ Chorus ]
Turn the lights down lowTake it offLet me showMy love for youInsatiableTurn me onNever stopWanna taste every dropMy love for youInsatiable
Turn the lights down lowTake it offLet me show

My love for youInsatiableTurn me onNever stopWanna taste every dropMy love for youInsatiable
We never sleepwe're alwaysholdin' handsKissin' for hourstalkin' makin' plansI feel like a better manJust being in the same roomWe never sleepthere's just somuch to doToo much to sayCan't close my eyeswhen I'm with youInsatiable the wayI'm loving you
[ Chorus ]
Turn the lights down lowTake it offLet me showMy love for youInsatiableTurn me onNever stopWanna taste every dropMy love for youInsatiable
Turn the lights down lowTake it offLet me showMy love for youInsatiableTurn me onNever stopWanna taste every dropMy love for youInsatiable

THE VIDEO

Blurred lines of sexuality

2007-11-04T18:42:00.000-08:00

The flourishing internet e-businesses particularly pornsites and blogsites catering to just about everything you can think of have broken the lines of separation between Gay, Straight, Bi, Omni and A-sexual. Such are the labels that we have been wearing ever since the closet door hit the floor and we waved our rainbow pride flag and these were being created by the society to help recognize differences in people, but with the internet, these lines are already blurred and gone is the day that there is a "normal" approach to one's sexuality. Again these lines and boundaries are no longer necessary, there is no longer right or wrong when it comes to sex, as long as it is done with the consent of the people involved.

Being gay isn't really about who you sleep with, it is about our freedom to choose regardless of what other people think that is normal and mores. Our gay culture is just a normal reaction to the social integration that we struggled to create until now. Let us now celebrate our freedom of expression and recognition. Keep the internet free from any kind of censorship.

Be the best, be in the Best Gay Blogs

2007-11-02T21:52:00.001-07:00

I am so honored to know that I am finally included in this blogroll that comprises internationally known blogs.

Guys thank you so much! More power to all of us......

10 Notable things about Dominicans

2007-11-02T00:26:00.000-07:00

You may say it is because of the difference among cultures but being in a foreign land one cannot help while you're living with them but notice some things. I listed them to give you an idea;

(1) They're used to looking and catcalling women but when it is mother's day they celebrate it wholeheartedly. Oh only if PLU can do the same, you know stare intentionally at the bulges of the guys without getting mauled. That'll be splendid.

(2) They love to celebrate holidays, there's almost a holiday in every month. Okay in this one I should agree with them.

(3) They always greet each other but they do not trust their neighbors, proof of which is that the houses are railed from the doors to their windows.

(4) They eat vegetables but it is overcooked and saggy that nutrients are already lost. NO VALE LA PENA.

(5) They wash their hands with handsoap but wipe it with toilet paper from a dispenser where a toilet basket placed below it. Then they'll shake hands with you. (oh okay!!!)

(6) They have overpass but seldom use it. I read lot of motorist dying by hit and run. WTF are they for? Display???

(7) They have 2 names but they're more oftenly called by different name far away from the 2 names. It's really confusing.

(8) They're surrounded by seas and yet they seldom eat fish. Yeah, it is so expensive here but who wouldn't want to eat fish?

(9) People debates just about everything in the sun and just about everywhere. So you hear Yadah yadah yadah on the television, on the road, in the restaurants and even inside restrooms.

And lastly, which is a great interest to the PLU is that,

(10) Boys shave both their pubes and armpit, and always touch their crotches when they walk. (Were they showing it off?) Girls shave their pubes on the bikini area but not in their armpit and not shy to show it off(yuckkk!!!that's what you call stinking guts!).

However all of these were topped by them being so nationalistic and lover of arts and music which I admire a lot. Their love of their country is truly unheard of.

When cynicism and bigotry backfires

2007-10-31T17:28:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's really hard to comprehend people, the things they do and think differ in so many ways, it never fails to boggle your mind. Such as these so-called fundamentalist who have gotten what they deserve, if you want to know more about what I am trying to arrive at, read this:

(1) Church ordered to pay $10.9 million for funeral protest by http://www.cnn.com/

(2) Jury awards father $11M in funeral case by http://www.news.yahoo.com/

Their sick and twisted notion that the people dying in Iraq war is a punishment for the America's tolerance of homosexuality is just outright ridiculous. Reasoning that what they were doing is to spreadout this message(yeah right!), but they have ignored the inflicted emotional distress to the bereaving families. They routinely picket funerals of military personnel carrying placards like in the pictures below:

But the Maryland lawsuit filed by Albert Snyder of York, PA believed to be the very first filed by the family of a fallen serviceman won the rulings and his attorney Craig Trebilcock had urged the jurors to determine the amount of $10.9 M to send the message that no one should bring circus of hate to Maryland. The awarded amount far exceeds the net worth of the defendants as per financial statements filed with the court. Serves them good hmmmmph!

Forbid me to love you Jim !

2007-10-31T11:09:00.000-07:00

THE ARTIST

Jim Verraros is an outgoing, personable and sweet American singer and best known for being the first openly gay contestant who made it on the top 10 finalist in the first season of American Idol.

During his junior high he had endured endless harassment for being a "faggot" mainly because he got a voice that wasn't low compared to the other guys. And also that's because he loved doing the choir and the theater acting.

Now as established entertainer besides acting, he starred in the gay-themed comedy Eating Out and its sequel, he wants to incorporate gay activism into his career as well. Well said Jim, now how can you forbid me not to love you?

THE SONG

You're making me crazy, baby
I can't figure you out buy maybe
make up your mind; tell me what you wanna do
I wanna groove and move right next to you
Close your eyes as my hands are on your hips
Hips, lips, fingertips - let it rip
Give it to me; give me your love
You like it soft, but let me show you rough
We're getting closer - can you feel it?
Can you handle it, can you take this?
It's getting hotter, getting hard to breathe
What you got, i want and i need

Forbidden love
Such a dangerous game (do you want to play)
Forbidden love
Buy you know i got to play (in every single way)
Forbidden love
We can dance the night away
Forbidden love, forbidden love

Come on, baby, let your body go
I wanna take you down right to the floor
Bodies shaking, love that move you're making
You're breaking me, you've taken me
I can feel your eyes weighing me down
Turn around 'cause you don't make a sound
Follow me, just take my hand
Don't try, i'm gonna make you understand
Holding you closer, holding you tighter
It's getting hotter - let's make a fire
Your body's burning love,
let's turn the music up
I got a thirst and i can't get enough

Forbidden love
Such a dangerous game (do you want to play)
Forbidden love
Buy you know i got to play (in every single way)
Forbidden love
We can dance the night away
Forbidden love, forbidden love

Necesito muy bien
No estas enloqueciendo, yeah
Te necesito, dame lo, dame lo
Quiero sentir tu cuerpo, yeah
Come on baby, let your body go
I want to take you down right to the floor
Bodies shaking, love that move your making
You're breaking me; you've taken me

Forbidden love
Such a dangerous game (do you want to play)
Forbidden love
Buy you know i got to play (in every single way)
Forbidden love
We can dance the night away
Forbidden love, forbidden love

THE VIDEO

Again, no official vid for this one this one is just an overlay of a TV program

The power of thinking: leadership and responsibility

2007-10-30T17:01:00.000-07:00

" I will step up and assume my leadership role in my world today, although this won't likely come without its challenges. There are many things to do, but ultimately, I just want everybody to be as happy as possible. I will remember that every individual is fully responsible for his or her own happiness, and will allow them to work out their issues without my intervention."

Gay-ishly spooky Halloween to you!

2007-10-29T19:10:00.000-07:00

It's that time again of the year when everybody can just frock themselves without any qualms of being stereotyped. Goulish creatures are being celebrated with so much party that they can be double-dead afterwards due to exhaustion and too much booze. Kids forget their worries about tooth decay and tooth fairy as they gobble up the candies they gathered from trick or treating.

Others love to watch horror films while their boyfriend does not disagree, of course be wary he might be shrieking more than you do. TV shows that tell spooky stories about places and events are also in every channel. Are all of these stuff are giving you goosebumps? Would you not be much more happy if being spooky can also be funny? I chanced upon this website about The Gay Monsters

ala Adams family via Queerclick, which is a must see. The characters are so beautifully created you'll be hooked once you get to know them. And here they are;

Xander - In love with a living man but heartbroken, dreamer, modest, often pitiful, glum, romantic, thinker, gentle

Wylie - Xander's bestfriend, desirable, happily unattached, sexually outgoing, popular, sensual, egotistical

Francis - Manny's boyfriend, flamboyant, sociable, glitzy, selfish, showy, colorful, loud

Manny - Francis' boyfriend, totally in love, very jealous, insecure, suspicious, dedicated ang faithful

Presley - Bar's Karaoke host. He's always drunk. although he's the "scary-oke" host he's still a dreadful singer

Countless Dragula - The bar's featured drag queen, sriking, clever, brassy but tasteful, funny, wise

Jack The Stripper - Sexy go-go boy at the bar, youtful, full of dumb ideas, talkative, lively, dim-witted, addicted to porn

Hagitha - An adorable straight girlfriend to the gay monsters, fun, outgoing, loyal, free-spirited and trendy

(Note: All character description were taken from the original website)

Have a roll of laughter instead of goosebumps for this wonderful Halloween, while you watch this:

Lost in SPAIN

2007-10-28T21:30:00.000-07:00

It's been almost 3 months now that I'm blogging and I haven't posted anything yet explaining on how in the world did I get here in DR. First of all, my mom was already married to a Dominican guy making her a legit citizen of this country located in the Caribbean seas. Then she thought of bringing me here to try my luck and get a job. Actually the post would not be about me securing a job here but about one of my memorable experience of traveling by plane.

It was nearly 3 years ago when I first boarded a plane and, as you may say, I had the bad case of jitters and the butterflies just keep on messing with the contents of my stomach even before I got to NAIA. I was overexcited I had sleepiness nights. Never had I shown this to my other siblings because I don't want them to think I'm chickening out. Hell!!!I'm going to travel alone and it'll be my very first so how should I feel. My travel route was Manila to Thailand, Thailand to Rome, Rome to Spain, then finally Spain to Dominican Republic. Oh yeah that was fucking 18 hours of flight. Good thing am a very patient traveler and a persistent gourmet eater.....heheheh Ive' eaten almost everything they've offered me in the plane. Am so bloated that I even had to do it there on the plane. Poor stewardess she had to put air-freshener. Yuccckkkk!!!

On the first two trips the travel was very uneventful. I've gotten my surprise when I was traversing Rome because it was so cold and freezing, I think that was the time when Pope John Paul II had died. I didn't have any coat with me just my Penshoppe long-sleeved shirt which surely had failed to make me warm. No wonder people were looking at me besides I was about to freeze to death, but I am the only one Asian left on that trip and that I am so puny compared to them. Imagine I am only as tall up to where their chest are, I was walking with a throng of giants. I was praying they would not step on me, heheheheh just kidding.

So finally we landed in Spain and boy how I was at awe when I looked around. Their airport is attached to a big Mall with boutiques that you don't see in ours and it has lots of walkalators going to different areas. The place is so big and these walkalators were like spaghettis finding your way is a big problem. In every airport there's a certain SOP that they're were applying and in Spain you have to give your passport as soon as you get out of the plane door. I have no working knowledge about Spanish so I did not understand what the customs police have told me. Upon handing them my passport I immediately followed the crowd getting off. I ended up inside the Mall, I am a window-shopper freak and since I still have enough time I've decided to stroll around for awhile. But when it's about an hour less to my supposed ETD I got so worried already because they haven't handed me my boarding pass yet. And I don't know where exactly I am going to get it. I panicked so much that I was going to and from just like in the slapsticks comedy and while there are signs that I can read, it was no help at all, still I'm 404. With the little Spanish that I knew I've pulled all my nerve to approach the information desk and explained my case in broken spanish and using my 2 handy dandy travel dictionary. Would you believe they were looking for me already? Heheheh! I'm like a fugitive that the whole Spanish customs administration were already going nuts and yet I was just strolling around cluelessly. I guess they've had heard about Filipinos going TNT, and I was not spared being branded like them. So in my broken Spanish I tried to explain to them what had happened alas they did not understand me well (So my 2 years Spanish subject too did not help). Good heavens they've finally found someone who can understand and speak English and the problem was solved. After some questioning the guy who turned out to be a supervisor accompanied and brought me to the place where I should have gone in the first place. They made me wait outside where one of the guards,

being as inquisitive as they are have asked from what country have I come from. He's so cute like an angel with a towering nose that I can't help but look at. I'm a sucker for Caucasians. When he learned that I came from the Philippines, after I told him that I was not a Korean nor a Taiwanese, he tried to say "Magandang Araw sa iyo" to which I was very surprised. I asked him how come he knows how to say that and he said he had a Filipina nurse girlfriend before and she taught him some. All of my hopes have gone to the drain when I heard that....well what do you know I can't help it. We've talked some more and finally when the customs head called me and gave me back my passport I got saddened. I had the feeling that Miguel and I might have connected other than just being friends but I needed to go and there's no way I can stay there any longer(you wish!!!). You could say I had a mixed feeling when I boarded the plane, a feeling of relief, a feeling of enjoyment and disappointment but to sum it all up, it was a memorable experience I had in a foreign land, to be lost in SPAIN. What about you have you ever been lost?

Salamat po! (Thank you!)

2007-10-28T13:01:00.000-07:00

It's an honor to be enlisted on your blogroll, the roster that you have is definitely an A-list. I hope I can live up with the expectations but in the meanwhile I'd like to thank you with all my heart. It's the truth that when I stumbled upon Pinoy Gay Blogs

I have gained back the interest to write, I was a contributor back then to the defunct beefcake magazine Valentino in the Philippines using the same pseudonym. I thought my muse have left me forever and that I'm done being a writer. Guess I'm wrong because I finally found all of you who are now my inspiration. Thank you so much!

To the group, I wish all the best and more power. Mga kababayan, let's paint the whole wide world web in Pink and in time surely we'll be free. World Peace!!!

The power of thinking: preparedness

2007-10-27T21:08:00.000-07:00

"I may not be able to relax enough today and feel fully at ease. I can sense that something big is coming down the path, but I cannot possibly know how to respond until I know exactly what it is. I won't push for a solution; clarity will return in time and I'll be able to take definitive action."

A glimpse of Dominican hotties

2007-10-26T16:50:00.000-07:00

I thought of sharing you photos I got of some Dominicans taken from a parade they have here every February. Latino's look very different with each other some are white, some are brown skinned and some other that are almost black. If they can't differentiate a Filipino from other Asians (they only know Chinese), am also having a hard time in classifying them. Nonetheless it's still nice to look at them. It's true being in Dominican Republic is like being in a country full of UCB models.Whenever there's an opportunity I'll take some more pictures to share it with you. This time I'll try to make it a point to give you a closer look at them.

Rx: Weekly Prescription - Hunkalicious Babe-lium (Overdosage is allowed)

2007-10-25T17:01:00.000-07:00

Ty for your pleasure

Just so you know:

Nick: Ty

Age: 37

Zodiac: Sagitarrius

Ethnicity: Jamaican and Chinese

Eye Color: Brown

Hair Color: Black

Height: 6'2"

Ty is an African American model and aspiring actor with a mixed Jamaican and Chinese heritage, who paved the way for the up and coming models of colour. His unique appearance attributed to the uncanny mix of parents he had is so apparent in his exotic eyes that gained him the Ralph Lauren and Polo Sport modeling anchorage. Now he is known to be one of the highest-paid and richest African-American male supermodels in the world.

Like any other Bronx kids of his age he was involved in juvenile problems such as ganghood, drugs and theft. Luckily he was picked out of the basket by chance when he was 21 in a NY park, and that was the start of his modelling career.

His muscular physique have since been with him as he was into football and track teams when he was still in high school. All the girls and gays maybe drooling and going gaga with his semi-naked pics (truly beefcake sells!!!) all over the internet but his heart already belonged to Berniece, a UK-born entrepreneur and to his son in which he is very fond of.

Finding a picture of him not showing any degree of nudity is a painstaking search over the net ,

and only the pictures herein are what I can come up with. Just one thing, he is an African american and he lives in New York, you think the term DL is familiar to him? (heheheh! naughty me.......)

Sayonara Evviva Male

2007-10-24T19:14:00.000-07:00

It's always saddening when you are just starting a friendship and you lose them right away. And you have no control of whatsoever to make them stay. In reality this melancholia is always present in life, whenever we are leaving school or work or a lover a feeling that's like a part of you have just been taken away, which we can do nothing but accept.

There's only the consolation that they're doing better or happy where they are now. Just like what I felt when Greg of Evviva left the Blogosphere.

Sayonara my friend! You and you're wonderful blog will be forever missed.

When sex is not just S-E-X

2007-10-23T11:05:00.000-07:00

"Short Bus"

You've just lost half of your gay life if you haven't seen this movie yet. I suggest that you and your beau go to the nearest video rental and grab a copy and watch it. While the movie got some banging from the critics for the sexual content, I guarantee you that it would not raise any horny goosebumps on the back of your head neither because the way it was relayed in the movie is a contradiction to the definition of pornography. The plot which Revolves around the lives of a sexually diverse group of emotionally challenged New Yorkers trying to connect with each other after the 9/11 tragedy. Actually there are more than 3 subplots that the movie contain, but in our interest I will be discussing more of the gay subplot here:

A soft-spoken James (Paul Dawson)

which is a former male whore suggest to his boyfriend whose name is James (PJ DeBoy)

also that they should have an open relationship. Meaning they could have sex with another guy. They met a young ex-model and aspiring singer named Ceth (Jay Brannan)

and the three begin their menage-a-trois. Meanwhile unknowingly James and Jamie's life is stalked by their across-the-street neighbor Caleb(Peter Stickles).

He fears the inclusion of Ceth in James and Jamie's relationship might break them up and thus destroy his ability to live vicariously through them. One time he attended Shortbus and confronted Ceth. And what goes on after this rendezvous is all for you to see. I'm not going to spoil your excitement, am I? Here's a sneak preview:

DR on my lens - Sandy White Beaches

2007-10-22T22:52:00.000-07:00

Boca Chica Beach is less than hour ride from the capital city of Dominican Republic. Where the water is crystalline and the sands are white. It is the most crowded beach here. It has two islands, Los Pinos and La Matica, and two sea ports. Here's two version of the beach at day and night. It looks very romantic at night, I was wishing that me and my honey were sipping Cranberry with Vodka while looking at the sun setting when I took this picture.

Just like Boca Chica, Juan Dolio Beach is also a less than an hour ride from the city. As an answer to an ever increasing tourism, luxury villas and all-inclusive resorts were built in the area. Besides the nice beaches, there is a complete infrastructure here in which you can also find the Metro Country Club's Los Marlins Golf Course.

Sorry I was not able to take a front shot of that guy in the middle pic, but I tell you he's one handsome kid. Oooops do I sound like a perv there??? Anyways he was with his mom, so it's definitely a no-no.

The power of thinking: knowledge

2007-10-22T21:56:00.000-07:00

"As I acquire more knowledge, things would not become more understandable but more mystifying."